Mental health check-in

Spent most of yesterday drinking so feel like absolute shit today. Not had a hangover like this in years and not the best situation to have major hangxiety. :(

Going to take it as a wake up call, I've been pretty productive throughout this but the booze intake has definitely increased the past few weeks.
 
My wife and I spent the weekend watching disturbing 911 calls and really had some great bonding time. (She has her doctorate in Forensic and Clinical Psychology so she loves that shit)
 
kinda in a dark place today. its just really hitting me that life is never going to be same. which is fine if it were just me, i could deal with that. but i made a decision to have kids and now i am like envisioning these horrible end of the world situations and how my kids would die and it just has me in a super shitty place. fuck. i just want to wake up and have this all be a bad dream. i brought them into this world that seems to be falling apart, really tough to explain this to very young kids.
 
sleewell said:
kinda in a dark place today. its just really hitting me that life is never going to be same. which is fine if it were just me, i could deal with that. but i made a decision to have kids and now i am like envisioning these horrible end of the world situations and how my kids would die and it just has me in a super shitty place. fuck. i just want to wake up and have this all be a bad dream. i brought them into this world that seems to be falling apart, really tough to explain this to very young kids.
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There’s still a tremendous amount of beauty in the world. Try and keep looking for it and teach your kids to do the same.
 
sleewell said:
kinda in a dark place today. its just really hitting me that life is never going to be same. which is fine if it were just me, i could deal with that. but i made a decision to have kids and now i am like envisioning these horrible end of the world situations and how my kids would die and it just has me in a super shitty place. fuck. i just want to wake up and have this all be a bad dream. i brought them into this world that seems to be falling apart, really tough to explain this to very young kids.
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Hang in there mate and you know what - it will be the same, it's going to take a while but we're a resilient little species.

Still feeling pretty rotten but nothing a day on the couch watching junk TV won't help - definitely limiting the alcohol intake from here on out - I have a wine guy who dropped off a bunch of cases before this kicked off and I've been drinking a bottle or 2 per day partly out of borebom and partly just because its sitting there - can't be turning that into a habit.

Mentally I've been thinking about work a lot. I love my job and I'm dying to get back to it - this is definitely different to the school holidays, but I don't think we'll reopen before the Summer and there's not going to be much in the way of wedding gigs either on the DJ front so I don't have a purpose just now - at least my wife is still working, she has stuff to get up for.
 
jbj said:
Hang in there mate and you know what - it will be the same, it's going to take a while but we're a resilient little species.
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I remember being really struck by the colorized version of the Great Depression era photos. It still looked incredibly trying, but seeing the kids with colorful dresses on made it seem happier, not that it was happy... I hope y’all know what I mean.
 
It's not going to be the same for a while, and it might not be exactly the same ever, but it will definitely get better than it is right now, and maybe it will actually be better in the long run than it was before (the eternal pessimist in me says it won't but he's kind of a dick)
 
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yabba said:
It's not going to be the same for a while, and it might not be exactly the same ever, but it will definitely get better than it is right now, and maybe it will be better in the long run (the eternal pessimist in me says it won't but he's kind of a dick)
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Uh, Beavis, did he just say he has a dick in him?!? Eh huh huh uh heh.
 
smurfco said:
Shit is shitty and keeps getting shittier. Stay safe everyone
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On a micro level it might feel like it’s getting shittier for us 1st worlders, but on a macro level it’s just as shitty as it’s always been.

The human condition is the same as it ever was and if other humans have found things to be joyful about for as long as they’ve been in the shitty circumstances they’ve been in, we can too.
 
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Last night I took a dose of dexamethasone (corticosteroid) as a to increase my white blood cell count prior to a granulocyte donation I made this morning a the Stanford Blood Center for a pediatric patient at Lucille Packard who is a match for me. So, for the rest of the day I am jumpy, nervous, and have hiccups. Tomorrow, I will crash...
 
I was trying to explain to a local student why we can do skype lessons but his performance classes were on indefinite hold and the conversation made me fully explore the concept that I will most likely not be able to perform in public for months if not years. I knew this, but having to walk him through why these things were bad ideas was no fun.
 
Mark Wein said:
I was trying to explain to a local student why we can do skype lessons but his performance classes were on indefinite hold and the conversation made me fully explore the concept that I will most likely not be able to perform in public for months if not years. I knew this, but having to walk him through why these things were bad ideas was no fun.
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Yeah, no live music as a spectator or performer is a real bummer and the not knowing when or if it will return is a drag. I’m fairly certain most of my fav places to play and see shows are gonna be vaporized by this thing.
 
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