Mental health check-in

The weather is fucking with us lately. Brutal cold punctuated by a day or two in the 60's... of course these are days I'm working and have no time to go outside... then brutal cold again. Minor complaint in the grand scheme of things, but I need my kids to GO OUTSIDE!!!

Being able to finally open the windows was a joy.
 
Flamencology said:
Yesterday was the last day of my 4th chemo cycle. Optimistically, that’ll be one third down.

I am exhausted and a little irritable. To the point where when I hear an able-bodied person say “I’m tired,” I want to respond with a curt “no, you’re not.”

Went for a walk with the dogs the other day, and I’m really paying for it.

Getting a ton of reading done, and have an enormous amount of support from family — can’t imagine someone living this week at without it — but fuck. I just feel done.
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Much mojo.
 
So my Mom died in the early morning wee hours Saturday. I was on the way over to try and get there first, but didn’t quite. I had been there two weeks before for two weeks, so I did not completely miss out. But, it was a blow. And a relief. And just weird. My parents are gone and I am processing. I grabbed my guitar I had played for her and my pedal amp and forgot to grab my little speaker cabinet. So bought a used amp today so I could play. Got a bike ride in with a couple old friends today too.

More later.
 
sunvalleylaw said:
So my Mom died in the early morning wee hours Saturday. I was on the way over to try and get there first, but didn’t quite. I had been there two weeks before for two weeks, so I did not completely miss out. But, it was a blow. And a relief. And just weird. My parents are gone and I am processing. I grabbed my guitar I had played for her and my pedal amp and forgot to grab my little speaker cabinet. So bought a used amp today so I could play. Got a bike ride in with a couple old friends today too.

More later.
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My condolences. Sorry for your loss. :frown:
 
sunvalleylaw said:
So my Mom died in the early morning wee hours Saturday. I was on the way over to try and get there first, but didn’t quite. I had been there two weeks before for two weeks, so I did not completely miss out. But, it was a blow. And a relief. And just weird. My parents are gone and I am processing. I grabbed my guitar I had played for her and my pedal amp and forgot to grab my little speaker cabinet. So bought a used amp today so I could play. Got a bike ride in with a couple old friends today too.

More later.
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Mojo
 
sunvalleylaw said:
So my Mom died in the early morning wee hours Saturday. I was on the way over to try and get there first, but didn’t quite. I had been there two weeks before for two weeks, so I did not completely miss out. But, it was a blow. And a relief. And just weird. My parents are gone and I am processing. I grabbed my guitar I had played for her and my pedal amp and forgot to grab my little speaker cabinet. So bought a used amp today so I could play. Got a bike ride in with a couple old friends today too.

More later.
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Condolences
 
sunvalleylaw said:
So my Mom died in the early morning wee hours Saturday. I was on the way over to try and get there first, but didn’t quite. I had been there two weeks before for two weeks, so I did not completely miss out. But, it was a blow. And a relief. And just weird. My parents are gone and I am processing. I grabbed my guitar I had played for her and my pedal amp and forgot to grab my little speaker cabinet. So bought a used amp today so I could play. Got a bike ride in with a couple old friends today too.

More later.
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I’m sorry for your loss.
 
sunvalleylaw said:
So my Mom died in the early morning wee hours Saturday. I was on the way over to try and get there first, but didn’t quite. I had been there two weeks before for two weeks, so I did not completely miss out. But, it was a blow. And a relief. And just weird. My parents are gone and I am processing. I grabbed my guitar I had played for her and my pedal amp and forgot to grab my little speaker cabinet. So bought a used amp today so I could play. Got a bike ride in with a couple old friends today too.

More later.
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Condolences. :(
 
Sorry to hear that, SVL. It's sobering when you realize that now YOU are the eldest generation still above ground. Both of may parents died in Sep (one on 9/1, the other on 9/2) and it was a bit of a jolt (even though they were in their 90s and under hospice care so it wasn't unexpected). Very strange to think that "mmmm-my gggg-generation" are now the elders. I'm glad that it appears your mom went quickly - I hope that means she didn't suffer too much.
 
sunvalleylaw said:
So my Mom died in the early morning wee hours Saturday. I was on the way over to try and get there first, but didn’t quite. I had been there two weeks before for two weeks, so I did not completely miss out. But, it was a blow. And a relief. And just weird. My parents are gone and I am processing. I grabbed my guitar I had played for her and my pedal amp and forgot to grab my little speaker cabinet. So bought a used amp today so I could play. Got a bike ride in with a couple old friends today too.

More later.
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My condolences. So sorry.
 
sunvalleylaw said:
So my Mom died in the early morning wee hours Saturday. I was on the way over to try and get there first, but didn’t quite. I had been there two weeks before for two weeks, so I did not completely miss out. But, it was a blow. And a relief. And just weird. My parents are gone and I am processing. I grabbed my guitar I had played for her and my pedal amp and forgot to grab my little speaker cabinet. So bought a used amp today so I could play. Got a bike ride in with a couple old friends today too.

More later.
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My condolences to you and all who love her.
 
I had a decaf matcha at 6:30 last night. Even that had enough caffeine to keep me awake past midnight. Fucking my sleeping schedule made me hypomanic this morning which included a minor anxiety attack. No more matcha in the evening!
 
sunvalleylaw said:
So my Mom died in the early morning wee hours Saturday. I was on the way over to try and get there first, but didn’t quite. I had been there two weeks before for two weeks, so I did not completely miss out. But, it was a blow. And a relief. And just weird. My parents are gone and I am processing. I grabbed my guitar I had played for her and my pedal amp and forgot to grab my little speaker cabinet. So bought a used amp today so I could play. Got a bike ride in with a couple old friends today too.

More later.
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So sorry for your loss @sunvalleylaw
 
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