Mental health check-in
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Frank Prince
Slowhand
So sorry. I am just reading of all this. Mojo to you, buddy.
PunkKitty
The fates already f'ked me sideways
I live with severe depression. Meds only take the edge off and keep me somewhat functional. Much mojo.
smurfco
Meatus McPrepuce
thanks PK...
Text from my mum today. My school is so understaffed due to absence that her work (local youth centre - not a complex special needs school! ) have asked a bunch of them to come in this week to help the support assistants.
Im absolutely fucking fuming.
- if she was to get hurt covering for some workshy bastard I will lose my shit and get into trouble - not at kids, colleagues.
- even if that doesn't happen (and she's not stupid she knows I have a tough gig) she's a worrier and I don't want her knowing just how tough it is or when certain calls go out over the walkie talkies it basically means ive to attend to something where there's a sizeable chance I might get hurt.
Im absolutely fucking fuming.
- if she was to get hurt covering for some workshy bastard I will lose my shit and get into trouble - not at kids, colleagues.
- even if that doesn't happen (and she's not stupid she knows I have a tough gig) she's a worrier and I don't want her knowing just how tough it is or when certain calls go out over the walkie talkies it basically means ive to attend to something where there's a sizeable chance I might get hurt.
Apologies for the language, I've calmed a bit but I was apoplectic last night. my mum is a WASPI woman so should already be retired and she's even thrown into this because she's reliable, hardworking and dependable - one of our most experienced and sensible staff had a chunk bit out of her arm on Monday, another got rag dolled to the ground by their hair. It's not chaos and madness all of the time but the risks are real.
There's some very senior people at authority level apparently coming in too to support at the teaching level, I will lose my job if anything happens to her and one of these people are in the building.
There's some very senior people at authority level apparently coming in too to support at the teaching level, I will lose my job if anything happens to her and one of these people are in the building.
I don't think anything directly will come back at me, it can't really or my union would have a field day, and the press and local MP might catch wind.... but there's blue sky ways,means and levers behind the scenes depending on if this suit is vindictive or not. - stopping external promotions down the line etc. I don't care.
It is what it is, my mum is out of there and that's the most important thing. I bumped into her in the main street earlier (, outside her actual place of employment!!!) and she was apologising if she'd made things awkward for me!!!
The whole situation is ridiculous it's like saying, JBJ you work with a laptop so you can go and work with the tech boffins, btw there's a dozen or so of them that might bite your face or try to claw your eyes out. Good luck.
sunvalleylaw
Yep.
I think there are allowances for language in this thread/place. Hang in there.
Sorry for turning this into wtf is going on at JBJs work this week but f**k me, I do need a rant tonight.
There's one first aider in the whole place, me....
99% of the time it's scraped knees or nose bleeds however there's the odd time it goes batshit. That was today.
I'm in the middle of taking a lesson, absolutely flying btw, great lesson, and my walkie talkie goes for first aid. I ask if it's urgent, yes and it's in wing XYZ where our most unpredictable and dyregulated pupils are taught. Someone comes to cover my class and I charge around thinking that a colleague has been hurt by a pupil which isn't uncommon unfortunately.
.through the fobbed doors and it's like something from a horror movie, there's blood all over the place. One of the kids was climbing the fence outside, staff member told them "not safe, get down" whatevers happened, a slip or whatever, he's caught his forearm on it, slid, impaled his arm and got stuck, the staff member had to literally hold him up then Jimmy him off the fence!
It's fucking bad as in massive gash down his forearm and you can see the bone and tendons.
This kid has extremely complex autism so instead of passing out, crying or screaming he's flitting between the running around laughing or being really chilled and silent!
He's unpredictable and has a wicked right hook on him so we're trying to keep everyone safe but I manage to get a really shoddy bandage on it.
Ambulance arrives and we're trying to explain how complex, and potentially dangerous, the situation is due to his needs. I end up in the back of the ambulance with the paramedic trying to triage the kid.
Dad arrives and is understandably all over the place. Ambulance needs clearance as to where they should take him because he won't let them see the injury so they don't know what hospital is geared up for so I'm stuck in the back of this thing trying to keep things cool, support the kid to stay calm whilst not getting myself or the paramedic hurt.
We get the greenlight to go to hospital X and after a pow wow it's decided going in dad's car with the ambulance behind would be the safest option. Dad's understandably still all over the place and it wouldn't be safe for either of them to make the journey like that so I volunteer to drive.
10 minute journey but fuck me the mental gymnastics im doing trying to:
- keep dad cool so his energy isn't exacerbating things
- not crash this £50k plus automatic drive that I've no idea how to work
- not get punched in the face if the kid goes "up"
We got him there and they were whisked right in. I parked up and when I handed dad his keys back the kid was quiet and super chilled but I've no idea how it'll have gone down when they tried to do any sort of work on him.
Chinese takeaway, bit of heavy gardening I've been putting off in the dark and a bottle of wine and I'm feeling ok but it's been some week. I joke that you couldn't write a book about my work because no one would believe it and it's true.
There's one first aider in the whole place, me....
99% of the time it's scraped knees or nose bleeds however there's the odd time it goes batshit. That was today.
I'm in the middle of taking a lesson, absolutely flying btw, great lesson, and my walkie talkie goes for first aid. I ask if it's urgent, yes and it's in wing XYZ where our most unpredictable and dyregulated pupils are taught. Someone comes to cover my class and I charge around thinking that a colleague has been hurt by a pupil which isn't uncommon unfortunately.
.through the fobbed doors and it's like something from a horror movie, there's blood all over the place. One of the kids was climbing the fence outside, staff member told them "not safe, get down" whatevers happened, a slip or whatever, he's caught his forearm on it, slid, impaled his arm and got stuck, the staff member had to literally hold him up then Jimmy him off the fence!
It's fucking bad as in massive gash down his forearm and you can see the bone and tendons.
This kid has extremely complex autism so instead of passing out, crying or screaming he's flitting between the running around laughing or being really chilled and silent!
He's unpredictable and has a wicked right hook on him so we're trying to keep everyone safe but I manage to get a really shoddy bandage on it.
Ambulance arrives and we're trying to explain how complex, and potentially dangerous, the situation is due to his needs. I end up in the back of the ambulance with the paramedic trying to triage the kid.
Dad arrives and is understandably all over the place. Ambulance needs clearance as to where they should take him because he won't let them see the injury so they don't know what hospital is geared up for so I'm stuck in the back of this thing trying to keep things cool, support the kid to stay calm whilst not getting myself or the paramedic hurt.
We get the greenlight to go to hospital X and after a pow wow it's decided going in dad's car with the ambulance behind would be the safest option. Dad's understandably still all over the place and it wouldn't be safe for either of them to make the journey like that so I volunteer to drive.
10 minute journey but fuck me the mental gymnastics im doing trying to:
- keep dad cool so his energy isn't exacerbating things
- not crash this £50k plus automatic drive that I've no idea how to work
- not get punched in the face if the kid goes "up"
We got him there and they were whisked right in. I parked up and when I handed dad his keys back the kid was quiet and super chilled but I've no idea how it'll have gone down when they tried to do any sort of work on him.
Chinese takeaway, bit of heavy gardening I've been putting off in the dark and a bottle of wine and I'm feeling ok but it's been some week. I joke that you couldn't write a book about my work because no one would believe it and it's true.
PunkKitty
The fates already f'ked me sideways
How I spent this afternoon:
The top left molar broke in half laterally after losing some of the 40+ year old filling. No real pain. Just a gaping hole where my tooth once was. Of course my dental insurance didn't cover this. A bridge will cost about $3600. That's out of the question for now. A single tooth implant would cost $5000. Teeth aren't part of our bodies according to insurance companies. I'm moving to a new insurance plan on January 1 with better dental coverage. They should cover part of the bridge cost. And I need gum grafts. Oh, joy.
The top left molar broke in half laterally after losing some of the 40+ year old filling. No real pain. Just a gaping hole where my tooth once was. Of course my dental insurance didn't cover this. A bridge will cost about $3600. That's out of the question for now. A single tooth implant would cost $5000. Teeth aren't part of our bodies according to insurance companies. I'm moving to a new insurance plan on January 1 with better dental coverage. They should cover part of the bridge cost. And I need gum grafts. Oh, joy.
sunvalleylaw
Yep.
Whoa! Mojo!
mattoverb
Slightly-less-n00by than a few posts ago
I love all of you I ever interacted with and if anyone needs to be gassed up or a little pep talk I would sincerely engage. Via text or phone if you need it(Max 5mins). Not trying to sound like a blowhard. I'll roast myself if it brings a smile to anyone.
When I lost my dad and even my cat on HCGJ people were so nice. I don't think I had the maturity in offering anything worthwhile then...so just wanted to throw it out there.
When I lost my dad and even my cat on HCGJ people were so nice. I don't think I had the maturity in offering anything worthwhile then...so just wanted to throw it out there.
