Mental health check-in

jp_nyc said:
I am currently having a hypomanic episode. Today I have spent around 50 minutes walking the dogs and doing a Pimsleur Japanese lesson, gone to four grocery stores, cleaned up dog poop in the yard, mowed the lawn, and cooked dinner. Also I am gorging on carbs—I had rice and a Vietnamese sesame rice ball with dinner, then ate a ball of mochi, and now I’m drinking a sweet turmeric latte. And despite taking a handful of tranquilizers I want to punch a hole in the wall.
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Hope everything is okay and you can get on an even keel soon.
 
Tralfaz said:
S'been a rough time. My dad died about 10 days ago (Alzheimer's, not COVID), and I've been in a surreal depression ever since. I wasn't able to go up and see him again as planned because of the pandemic, and now it's too late. There wasn't a funeral because of the travel restrictions. My step-mom didn't want to do a Zoom service, and I don't blame her. We're planning a graveside service when this pandemic is over, but who knows when that'll be. Really depends on your definition of "over," I suppose.

I know it's something that a lot of people are dealing with right now -- a loss without closure. Instead of the purposeful distractions of dealing with funeral arrangements, sending flowers, airing out that old black suit from the back of the closet, finding a clean white shirt, writing up some remarks for the service, you're stuck at home, sitting around and grieving.
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Sorry to hear that.
 
Tralfaz said:
S'been a rough time. My dad died about 10 days ago (Alzheimer's, not COVID), and I've been in a surreal depression ever since. I wasn't able to go up and see him again as planned because of the pandemic, and now it's too late. There wasn't a funeral because of the travel restrictions. My step-mom didn't want to do a Zoom service, and I don't blame her. We're planning a graveside service when this pandemic is over, but who knows when that'll be. Really depends on your definition of "over," I suppose.

I know it's something that a lot of people are dealing with right now -- a loss without closure. Instead of the purposeful distractions of dealing with funeral arrangements, sending flowers, airing out that old black suit from the back of the closet, finding a clean white shirt, writing up some remarks for the service, you're stuck at home, sitting around and grieving.
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I am so sorry to hear that, man. This is so difficult for people to find that resolution.
 
Tralfaz said:
S'been a rough time. My dad died about 10 days ago (Alzheimer's, not COVID), and I've been in a surreal depression ever since. I wasn't able to go up and see him again as planned because of the pandemic, and now it's too late. There wasn't a funeral because of the travel restrictions. My step-mom didn't want to do a Zoom service, and I don't blame her. We're planning a graveside service when this pandemic is over, but who knows when that'll be. Really depends on your definition of "over," I suppose.

I know it's something that a lot of people are dealing with right now -- a loss without closure. Instead of the purposeful distractions of dealing with funeral arrangements, sending flowers, airing out that old black suit from the back of the closet, finding a clean white shirt, writing up some remarks for the service, you're stuck at home, sitting around and grieving.
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So sorry. Much mojo.
 
Tralfaz said:
S'been a rough time. My dad died about 10 days ago (Alzheimer's, not COVID), and I've been in a surreal depression ever since. I wasn't able to go up and see him again as planned because of the pandemic, and now it's too late. There wasn't a funeral because of the travel restrictions. My step-mom didn't want to do a Zoom service, and I don't blame her. We're planning a graveside service when this pandemic is over, but who knows when that'll be. Really depends on your definition of "over," I suppose.

I know it's something that a lot of people are dealing with right now -- a loss without closure. Instead of the purposeful distractions of dealing with funeral arrangements, sending flowers, airing out that old black suit from the back of the closet, finding a clean white shirt, writing up some remarks for the service, you're stuck at home, sitting around and grieving.
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Sorry to hear you lost you’re dad.

It’s tough enough to have a loss like that, without all the crap going on now.
 
Tralfaz said:
S'been a rough time. My dad died about 10 days ago (Alzheimer's, not COVID), and I've been in a surreal depression ever since. I wasn't able to go up and see him again as planned because of the pandemic, and now it's too late. There wasn't a funeral because of the travel restrictions. My step-mom didn't want to do a Zoom service, and I don't blame her. We're planning a graveside service when this pandemic is over, but who knows when that'll be. Really depends on your definition of "over," I suppose.

I know it's something that a lot of people are dealing with right now -- a loss without closure. Instead of the purposeful distractions of dealing with funeral arrangements, sending flowers, airing out that old black suit from the back of the closet, finding a clean white shirt, writing up some remarks for the service, you're stuck at home, sitting around and grieving.
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I have no way of imagining what you're going through, but I know the deepest pain will fade over time. The lack of closure certainly compounds all the negatives.

Losing my mother was my greatest loss. Even 25 years later, something will remind me of a special moment or perhaps something she once said, and the tears roll out. That's okay. Bittersweet moments are among life's greatest treasures.
 
For your viewing pleasure, my confession:

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bsman said:
Just found out: Stay at home order in Santa Clara County extended through the month of May....

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I'm going to have hair like I did in high school! I almost envy my bald friends these day...almost. On the plus side fewer cars on the road for another month.

I am reminded of the line from Lovers in a Dangerous Time which seems quite appropriate these days (both the song and the line, particularly in the view of mental health)

"Got to kick at the darkness 'til it bleeds daylight"

Mojo to you @Tralfaz. Tig summed it up well
 
Tralfaz said:
S'been a rough time. My dad died about 10 days ago (Alzheimer's, not COVID), and I've been in a surreal depression ever since. I wasn't able to go up and see him again as planned because of the pandemic, and now it's too late. There wasn't a funeral because of the travel restrictions. My step-mom didn't want to do a Zoom service, and I don't blame her. We're planning a graveside service when this pandemic is over, but who knows when that'll be. Really depends on your definition of "over," I suppose.

I know it's something that a lot of people are dealing with right now -- a loss without closure. Instead of the purposeful distractions of dealing with funeral arrangements, sending flowers, airing out that old black suit from the back of the closet, finding a clean white shirt, writing up some remarks for the service, you're stuck at home, sitting around and grieving.
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My condolences.
 
nuke_diver said:
I'm going to have hair like I did in high school! I almost envy my bald friends these day...almost. On the plus side fewer cars on the road for another month.
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I shave my head 2-3 times a week with DE razor. I wouldn't say it's a hobbie but I've turned the downstairs toilet into my shave cave so I've all my stuff there, some nice bric a brac and so on. I pick an album I've never heard or not listened to in a while and get to work.

Beats back in the day having to queue at a barbers with all the local bampots.

I am growing out a beard during lockdown just because I can. I already look 10 years older :grin: Mrs JBJ seems to like it but as soon as work starts back properly it's coming right off.
 
@Tralfaz mojo, man. Can't even imagine. @sunvalleylaw you too, for obviously different reasons.

We've been doing a lot of work outside lately. Reconfiguring the garden, and got the chikin run nearly complete. Played some frisbee and football catch with the kiddos over the weekend. That's all good for the soul, but too much time to think is still dangerous for me. I just need to retrain my brain to think about other things I guess. Need to read through ZAM again, it gave me some good starters on heavy thoughts.

Going to work while so many people are at home is weird. A lot of my coworkers are on a week-on week-off schedule right now, which doesn't make a lot of sense to me, but I guess that's why I don't make supervisor pay. Wrote some lyrics yesterday, it's not how I'm feeling, it just flowed so I wrote it down. I've got an idea of how it's gonna sound, and I got my recording stuff out and hooked up. Maybe tonight.
 
got a letter in the mail that due to the sheer volume of kids we have combined with my low income we are automatically going to start to receive money each month for food and its backdated to when they closed schools. must be tied to my son getting reduced price lunches at school because i didnt apply for anything.

we are getting by so i plan to donate whatever they give us to our local food bank. there are many more people who need it more than we do.
 
Punchy said:
@Tralfaz mojo, man. Can't even imagine. @sunvalleylaw you too, for obviously different reasons.

We've been doing a lot of work outside lately. Reconfiguring the garden, and got the chikin run nearly complete. Played some frisbee and football catch with the kiddos over the weekend. That's all good for the soul, but too much time to think is still dangerous for me. I just need to retrain my brain to think about other things I guess. Need to read through ZAM again, it gave me some good starters on heavy thoughts.

Going to work while so many people are at home is weird. A lot of my coworkers are on a week-on week-off schedule right now, which doesn't make a lot of sense to me, but I guess that's why I don't make supervisor pay. Wrote some lyrics yesterday, it's not how I'm feeling, it just flowed so I wrote it down. I've got an idea of how it's gonna sound, and I got my recording stuff out and hooked up. Maybe tonight.
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what’s ZAM?
 
Punchy said:
@Tralfaz mojo, man. Can't even imagine. @sunvalleylaw you too, for obviously different reasons.

We've been doing a lot of work outside lately. Reconfiguring the garden, and got the chikin run nearly complete. Played some frisbee and football catch with the kiddos over the weekend. That's all good for the soul, but too much time to think is still dangerous for me. I just need to retrain my brain to think about other things I guess. Need to read through ZAM again, it gave me some good starters on heavy thoughts.

Going to work while so many people are at home is weird. A lot of my coworkers are on a week-on week-off schedule right now, which doesn't make a lot of sense to me, but I guess that's why I don't make supervisor pay. Wrote some lyrics yesterday, it's not how I'm feeling, it just flowed so I wrote it down. I've got an idea of how it's gonna sound, and I got my recording stuff out and hooked up. Maybe tonight.
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I'd like to re-read ZAM at some point. I would say it was one of the most profound books along with Herman Hesse's Siddhartha that i've ever read. both were read over twenty years ago and both were those kinda books that "shape" you.
 
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